The Deed is Done

For better or worse, my sister ended her pregnancy on Sunday, April 1. Details are a bit fuzzy as Jenny was refusing to talk to anyone but Mom. Mom was not talking to me. I got all my information third hand from my lucky sister, Lisa, who was once again stuck in the middle of it all.

Jenny got the results of her amnio that week on Tuesday and originally scheduled her "procedure" on Saturday, March 31. But supposedly she started having some spotting and bleeding so things were pushed back a day to the Sunday. I am not entirely sure I believe this as Jenny called me on that Saturday while I was at the wedding. She had been shopping all day for birthday presents for the kids and needed an opinion on something for Cassidy. That was the first time I had talked to her in weeks and she only briefly mentioned the baby. She just said that she was going into the hospital the following day. I think my response was "I know" I probably could have been more considerate but it was close to 10 at night and I had been at a wedding drinking wine since 6:00. I would not have even talked to her if I had known it was about something so stupid.

So not only is the baby gone but I have not talked to my sister since then or my mom since the day she was so cruel to me. Mostly because they both shut me out. Also, my sister cancelled her trip home for Easter and my mom flew out there to be with her. I am angry at my mom for missing Easter and the kids' big birthday party because by the time she got there my sister had already been laying on the couch for close to a week and was going back to work the following day. I am not sure what help she thought she was going to be but she dropped everything in her life and flew out to be with her baby. And she wonders why Jenny doesn't always act like an adult. Maybe if she treated her like one?

Mom did send me a short letter late last week. "I miss you. And I miss my grandchildren." I have not responded. Because no where in there is "I AM SORRY." How about sorry I was so rude to you on the phone. Sorry I have not called and talked to you directly. Sorry for shutting you out of my life.

Lisa is also not happy with the two of them. Lisa had left Jenny a message telling her that she was thinking of her. Then she gets a call from mom telling her don't call Jenny she will call you.

So the family turmoil continues. I know I need to forgive and forget. But I can't yet.